Hello,
I have about six weeks left to live. No, not terminally ill. Just terminally depressed.
I've reached middle age. Always tired. Health and eyesight are failing. Body is beginning to fall apart. Those aren't the real problems, tho.
I'm socially inept. My social intelligence is close to zero. The last female I spent time with told me that "I don't socialize well," and that my communication is "primitive." I'm not anti-social--I just never seem to know the right words or how to speak them in a way that creates trust and friendship, especially when speaking with a woman. Some guys do this with such ease--I have trouble doing it at all. I'm a socially retarded member of a highly social species. This really, really gets me down.
I recite the "Serenity Prayer" every night. Wisdom, yes. Serenity...no. Courage? Yes, I've been granted the courage to make a change, a BIG change. Six weeks.
More later.
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